Just A Tale Story of Mine

It never crossed my mind that he and I could become more than just friends. He’s always there when I need a hand to lift me up. He’s always there when I laugh, cry, angry, even when I don’t have mood to talk at all.

Well, some said that “Good friends are persons who brave enough to tell you the right way when you’re walking on the wrong path”.

And since we’re getting closer, I learn how not to be a selfish person, how to listen to others, how terrible you feel when you make others worry about you, how it hurts you thousand times when you make people sad even though you’re not intend to;
I have a chance to realize that I could be such a pain in the ass. Well, the bottom line is, he pulls me out of my “comfort” zone. Should I hate him, or thank him for that? I guess both ... The bright side is, he "humanizes" me.

Sometimes I ask myself, 'Why could I do what he wants me to do without any question?' Hate to say this ... But he's the first one (since soooo many years) that could ask me to do something and I often do what he wants me to even though my mind and mouth say "no". Damn!!! Still don't have any answer for that question ...

And sometimes I’m wondering, how could he bare all the complicated in me? He sure is a temperamental man. So, how could he become very patient when I was confusing him, even myself?

I admit that I’m such an emotional and sensitive person in some cases. Well, I could try my best to hide all my sadness, keeping my burdens behind my smile, but it always can’t deceive him. I, myself, don’t have strength to hide it from him. So, when it all blast, he just stand there, try to comfort me, though I’m quiet sure that sometimes he doesn’t know what to do. (Gosh, I’m so sorry if I often do that even though I don’t want to and shouldn’t do. Believe me. It hurts me so bad when it happened…)

Many people come and go in my entire life, included my friends. That’s why I was preparing for the worst, which is loosing one more person like I loose them. And I’ve told him that.

But then, I could raise my smile after we made this promise, promise that I and he won’t break (please help us GOD). I’ll do my best to keep our promise and hopefully he’ll do the same. (At least, until now, he never breaks it. Thank you :) )

“To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.”

-- Thank you for always standing right by my side, and thank you for being one of the beautiful colours in "my world" :) --

True Friend of Mine

“A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.”


I used to have so many friends back in high school and college. But then-- after a few years of my college graduation-- I became a selfish person and a little bit anti social since I feel very comfort with my ego and myself. I only do what I want to do and I’d do the opposite if someone told me to do something.


So, I have this very best friend.

We used to hang out together, un-separately they said. (I guess that’s why most people call us “dynamic duo” :D) We used to end up in malls and cafe's; we also did stupid things (how I missed those moments), spontaneity things and crazy things together.

Only with her I could spend hours, days, even years without worrying that I don't have many friends like I used to (yeah, when you're older, everybody will get busy with their own life). She knows me so well. My selfishness, my will, my stupid principles, everything! I guess coz we have things in common on that “selfishness” and “anti social” matters.

Believe it or not, many times, when we both had problems, we didn’t need words to tell what's on our mind. We just hang out together and weren't talking at all!!! We got busy with our own thoughts and got lazy to speak. Yet we know that there's something in our head.
But the awesome thing was that we could solved our problems without words. Just meet each other, hang out together, and everything's just fine. And one more time ... WITHOUT WORDS!!! Is it weird? For others maybe it is...

But for us? That’s just how our hearts communicate, I guess :D

When she decided to chase her dreams, I felt like there will be no tomorrow. With whom could I hang out? With whom could I let out these burdens inside? Who could understand me? With whom could I share my tears and laugh? Man, I was totally alone!!!

We promise each other that whatever happens, there’s nothing in this world could change our friendships. (Do you remember why did we make that promise? ;)).

Times gone by… We still have contacts. But, hey… Text messages, e-mails, phones, and messenger aren’t the same. (I’m still wishing that you were here when I need you most and when I’m hang out in our favorite places, Gurl!)


I have some points-- from my point of view, of course -- of what best friend(s) means to me.

• You could meet so many people, but there is few or even just one person who could understand and take you just the way you are.

• Best friend(s) are those who you could wholly trust, even when you decided to tell your “darkest” secret(s). Sometimes you couldn’t even keep secrets from them coz eventually they’ll know.

• They will always there for you even when you can’t see them physically. Deep in your heart you have faith that they are right there, standing next to you, smile when you're smile, and drop tears when you're sad. (Someone told me —and it’s true—that no one can be right next to you 24/7.)

• Best friend(s) are those who you always looking for when you need a shoulder to cry on and the first one who comes up in your mind when you have a plan of having fun. You’ll feel incomplete without them.

Best friend(s) are treasures. They’re just one in a million …

And I’ve found not only a best friend, but true friend …

Blabberen :D

Waiting ...

Nothing to do ...

Alone ...

It sucks!


But I guess there are many people feel those at a time.
Have you ever thinking of being somebody else? Well, I have.
But now not anymore. I really like myself and what I'm doing -- Though maybe for some people it seems like I "have no life". But what the hell with what they're thinking. I'm the one who knows well what my life is ;)

I enjoy every single moment of my life. Every single hour, minute, even second. Being single, had relationships, back to single. Being a jobless, have a work, loosing work, searching again. Have good times, bad times, happy times, sad times. Have sooooo many friends, a few friends, even no friends at all when you need them most. I enjoy them very well. And I could raise my smile through them all :) Do you think what I'm enjoying are crazy? Well ...

When those things happens, you could feel happy, sad, greatful, even dissapointed. But I learn something.

When you deal with every single thing in your life with smile, believing that everything will be fine, then everything will be very beautiful eventually. Some addings ... You have no headache, no stress and who knows ... Someone will feel very blessed from your little smile :)


Sometimes rain is romantic ... But when rainbow comes, everything will be sooooo romantic ;)

They Said ...

They said …
That when you feel the beauty of love
You’ll feel like you’re the happiest person on earth;

They said …
That when you really really fall in love with someone
You have to prepare for the worst, loosing your beloved one;

But what they haven’t said…

When you fall in love with someone,
You’re gonna be the blindest person on earth;

When you should prepare for the worst,
You’ll never do it, coz you’ve already blinded by love
And believe that it would last forever;

When your beloved one walk away from your life,
It’s just the matter of time, coz there’s nothing eternal…

Lonely??? Hope not :)

Lonely …
It’s the worst thing ever!!!!

You feel empty;
You don’t know what you’re gonna do;
Then you feel lost;
You feel totally alone.

Have you ever through a moment where …
When you need a walk,
There’s no one could accompany you;
When you need to talk,
There’s no one you could call;
When you seek for a shoulder to lean on,
There’s no one around you;
When you feel you can’t handle it alone,
No one cares.

But hey …
That’s life.
Not in every moment that someone will be there for you,
Coz everybody has their own life.
So, you have to be strong.
You just have to!!!

Believe in yourself.
Believe that you could survive.
The power of believing is the greatest thing of all.
And just believe in one thing for sure…
Believe in GOD
Coz He’s the one that never ever leave you,
Not even for a single second.

So do you now believe that you’re not alone like what you feel?

I've Lost But I Found :)

I’ve lost my childhood,
Grew up as an ordinary child
In a complicated world
A world beyond a child’s naïve thoughts.
I’ve lost my teen age.
I through it all
without realizing that the time goes fast…
Very fast…

I’ve lost a figure
Who should love me
Who should protect me
Who should embrace me

But in the end…
I’ve found that as a child,
I was blessed with the maturity of thoughts that no one in my age would have.
I’ve found that as a teenager,
I was blessed with surrounding that made me feel complete in the middle of time.
I’ve found that when I lost that figure,
I am blessed with so many other figures that full me with love, protections and embraces…

I see now …
When you loose something …
It’s not that you loose everything.
Something else will replace it.
Something is the best for you.
Well, I think, I don’t really loose a thing, do I? :)

Missing The Old Days

Well, I'm kinda bored with stuffs. Really sucks, but hey, that's life !!! Kinda miss my friends. Nope. Really really miss them ... a lot !!!! 'Coz when you feel alone, one thing that could make you smile is those memories with everyone you love. And one of that will be your friends :) At least, that what I feel ...

Talking 'bout great memories with friends ... Let me think. High school was nice. But the greatest was my university memories !!! Laughing together, hang out, did crazy things, fighting, and so many many things. Yup ... Miss that all things.

Why do I share these with you? Coz I want you all to feel and believe that friends could make you laugh or cry. Could make you smile or angry. But above all of that, friends could fill your days with soooo many colours !!! Really hard to find new friends, but sooo easy to loose them. So, be nice to all, so that all gonna be nice to you.

I thank God above for blessing me with many friends in my life. And hope He always blesses me with so many good things in my whole life :)