Blue

Feel so blue.
I know that he knew what I feel about him.
But deep in my heart I also realize that there's a border between us.
I hate it !!!!
Please GOD, give me a clue.
If he's not for me, don't make me love him.
Just shut my heart, and please don't let me down.

When he was sitting right next to me, all I wanna do is holding him tight.
But I can't do that.
I shouldn't do that.
This heart is missing him so badly.
Almost in every breath of mine I long for him.
It should be beautiful.
But shoot ...
It's torturing me.

"The worst way of missing someone is to be sitting right next to them knowing you can't have them."